I miss you too!!
I can’t be with a guy who I can’t insult at least time to time. The sweet and mushy stuff gets a tad boring. I want to be able to call him an asshole, a jerk or a mother fucker, but at the end of the day, he knows I still love him.
I remember that!!! :)
Many of you may not want to even read this, knowing that it’s me just venting out my feelings. Well yes, it is. I don’t try to make people have pity for my words, I want someone to actually be there for me. I haven’t had a very close friend in a while, which is on me, I assume. I just think that right now, having a girlfriend to talk to or spend time with would be very invigorating to my life right now, if that makes sense. I see all the friends I used to be so close to, and shared so much memories with, slowly departure from my grasp. I want to have a variety of fun, a more exciting life right now. It’s been very very dull these passed few months, which cause me to think about things, and see what have I done wrong to bring myself into a situation like this. With that being said, RICKI, SABRINA, MELLISSA, ERICA, ARIANE, LYKA, CECILE, AMANDA, TERALYN, HANNAH, JUSTINE, PARTICIA, MARICRES, PINGOL, and anyone else I haven’t mentioned that I haven’t spoke to in a while, I miss you guys. I can honestly say that I feel a barrier between you all and myself whenever I see you guys. Half of you I barely talk to. And I think it’s partly my fault, because I haven’t made a bigger effort to spend time with you all. I’m just out and isolated from everyone. But I really do miss spending times with you guys, even if I spent less time bonding with some of you than others. Truth is, I’m jealous that you all are still sticking to each other, while I’m out in my own world. All I ask is a chance to have that bond with you, and hopefully everything for me this year will turn out fine.